gawd, i dont even know how often you read this anymore, or if you even check it anymore.

but since you're not at your comp i will result to this.

what if i said that i wanted to see you this wed? like you had said you would have last time? i don't know if you remember that, or what you said to me? i know you will be so busy that day, but it won't hurt to at least ask you? or even have hope to see you again? i know its over, etc, but i still miss you so much :( and its understandable that things are going to change and what you said has changed because people or time change...

i hope to hear from you soon allen ...

=/ i worry about you allen, geez.

my teeth DAMN ORTHO, "lets do detailing until december" that means i will have braces on for another 3 months, gah i like my teeth right now i dun give a f' anymore, geeezzzzzzzzzz

what do you do on weekends?

whats your plans for this wednesday?

lol EXCUSE me but whose the ONE who was grabbing me FIRST? O_o lol .. i wanted to watch my movie but i had interruptions *ahem* :)

okay now i won't be mad at you. lol sorry, i get pretty tempermental ... =O

i want to workout, but no car and no time to do it. i'm doing a 5K walk/run tomorrow :) wh0o0 supporting people with breast cancer. lol HERS FOUNDATION. yeah i can catch up with bobby tomorrow too. *yaY* :)

CONTROL YOURSELF GEEZ ALLEN! CONTROL YOUR DRINKING HABITS!!! >O you went sober for quite sometime too, temptation.

alrightey i'll blog more later, i have to go pee :D

budday, remember that? hehe =] now we are back to it ! yayyyyy... 'weetod'! muhaha.

well i wrote you a letter in 3 of my classes but today changed a lot of things. so i will rewrite another letter today, and send it to you tomorrow. maybe you will get it on saturday or monday =/ ... *sigh with a prestamped envelope :P

so .. on friend terms. what exactly am i allowed to say to you? because i never really thought of us throughout the time we knew eachother to be seriously friends? i hope you don't get offended if i call you some names? i call my friends "sweetie" and "dear" a lot so i hope you don't mind ...

if you have time, might you try to visit me next week? i don't think you have time, but just a asking, friendly.

another new beginning :) take care budday.

hello. linda isnt feeling good. its probably because she didnt' eat much of a dinner late night ... she's been having some wierd appetite lately. and nots it not be "skinny" haha THAT word doesnt exist in linda's diet. but yea ...

allen i'm sorry for being mean. i dont know why i was being mean. well maybe i do. but i'm trying to see another reason for it and trying to patch it up by myself. i need to learn to not get mad at people, even if they are people who i care most about.

=/ i miss you terribly.
*kisses allen, the monkey* >] thought i was going to kiss you EH?! AHAHAHHAH i would but you're not here.

have a niceeee day. be nice to me or i will bite. :)

del taco? i never ate there before, it scares me i dont know why.

schoo sucks. i hate ap english. i wish i had more people to ran to but obviously i'm trivial so no one comes to me to be there.

... could you tell me next time when you are planning to leave [online] because you always leave aburtly and i'm always left there hanging ...

onto happier news. well actually to think of it, there is none but i fixed my camera, its finally autofocusing the entire time i thought this guy broke my $1,000 camera. grrr. oh well i'm skilled, somewhat. haa i'm a loser. i printed out the majors to three UC's i'm applying for.

heres something nice, well not really but the lyrics are cute. its from that american idol girl, kelly clarkson - a moment like this

What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me,
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
That we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come and now...

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this...
Some people wait a lifetime

hi allen.


bye allen.


i miss you.

janet made it!

now i'm wondering hows your progress? are you settling in okie? are you tired? is it hot? [i think it is, up here is dreadfully hot -__-]

punkamii (6:23:27 PM): i havent been able to contact allen at all
punkamii (6:23:28 PM): u?
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:23:44 PM): oh ... *shrug*?
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:23:49 PM): maybe they are still driving?
punkamii (6:24:18 PM): o hush
punkamii (6:24:20 PM): u kno u care
punkamii (6:24:25 PM): he sed they left at 4am
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:24:25 PM): ...
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:24:30 PM): no
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:24:31 PM): lol
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:24:33 PM): the left around 9
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:24:34 PM): HAHAHA
punkamii (6:24:35 PM): whata whata
punkamii (6:24:40 PM): am?
punkamii (6:25:02 PM): that jerk face

yes i'm worried. of course i care >P

allen for the past week i been afraid to go online, you know why? i'm afraid that everytime i see you online i will start to cry. and i still do but i shouldn't be afraid to cry anymore. it just ... hurts.

i hope we dont' lose contact, i truly do. you are so special to me too. you were that little extra to put a smile on my face, maybe you are even the reason my art in studio art has been pretty okay lately. i use to sit and think for hours for something to paint, now it just flows. whatever i feel like i put it on. whatever colors i feel like seeing, its there. lol my art teacher said "this is probably the best thing one object thing you have ever done in my art class before". and i thank you for the inspiration allen.

doesn't it suck to go out with someone who basically house sitting? grounded? parents so overprotective? i'm sorry i couldn't be there to visit you more, or let you spend time with me more. allen you dont' have to take me out to show me anything. its alright. i like you for who you are not for what you can bring. heh =O of course it would've been nice to go out with you, hey you never know what will happen in december right? linda is 17, gets her license, winter break, i probably can go out! =] of course .. thats if you still want to see me! I BETTER HOPE YOU DO!

i love you. i truly do. and you won't lose your place in my heart either nor my mind. heh allen, the monkey, can't take the place of you. it can just remind me of you. you wonderful you are. how 'soft' you are. hehe *squeeze cheecks* omg this morning i woke up and accidentally hit the arm "I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU" freaked me out. haha but yea =] its the most wonderfulest thing anyone has ever given to me. lol. a lot of thought went into this ... you know what? in that jar of 1,000 stars theres still a wish, you can make another wish if you like :)

heh i cried twice from reading this. during lunch today i was determine to read this. so i went into my ap english class and read it. well after i hit some keywords i started to get tears, and then i skimmed it. haha by skimming the words would hit me as hard by reading. the now i read the entry over ... and tears just come down.

i'm glad you like the picture :) i hope that paper note keeper will do some good? as well as the pretty table decoration for you table :)

this week pretty much sucks. the two most important people in my life, who changed me in so many ways, are leaving. *sigh* i know all your friends are moving around too and you know how i feel. i really don't know what else to say.

you still haven't given me your address silly boy!

i know that you are. haha first time i met you i already had a taste of it ... can't be changed oh well.

blog more later.

guy: ohhhh
guy: ur taken :(
guy: :`(

=X

oh yeah you still haven't given me your address or phone number in IRVINE :P

i'm sorry for making you cry ... =/

hehe its okay. i don't feel too stupid for crying by myself =P

i understand allen, you know i'm a smart cookie. sorry i can't promise you i won't cry .. heh.

i love you allen. i care about so much. i hope we dont get distant from eachother, okay? losing you will be such a BAD BAD BAD thing .. i don't any more bad things to happen in my life especially when everything has been so good... =]

*hugs*

i hope you can come tomorrow :)

i feel weird about writing emails to you therefore i shall blog :)

well these last few days has been .. ROCKY i've been happy and at moments i'm just sad. but yea .. today was a lot better :) i had no sad moments! all happy and fun and exciting yes yes ... well sad for my ear since it hurt like hell. hahaha but yea NO ONE KNOWS! i was straining myself for both times -_____- dun get your ears pierced. hahaa :P i still wanta navel piercing though. puhahah :) and highlight my hair. that will be the day i get to go to school down south and live down south. =D

my cousin keeps thinking i'm going to go "buck wild" when i get into a college. because i've been ... under a lot of rules and such. but i doubt i will. i mean what would i do that would be different from before? probably go catch a FEW parties. go out at night. and still keep up with my studies and such. and of course DATe i can date when i'm in college >O HAHAHA. i dont know sometimes i like the thought of just being in a room by myself. it sounds more nice then going out having fun everynight. because after a month or so the routine will get boring. *shrug* who knows.

but yea i've been thinking abuot you, us, etc these couple of days too. i miss you. i want you. i love you. =/ and i dont know whats going to happen next, especially next week but i hope i can just ... i dont know.

i'm tired now i think i will leave to bed now. haha i hope you didnt go drinking >O no dont worry about leaving. its okay i just dun want you to be drinking thats all. i love you allen ryan tran. ta ta

i miss you lots. haha i got you something :) well .. two something. but yea its LITTLE so don't even sweat it :)

i guess you read my journal hm?

sorry aim was being stupid and i had to study. aim wouldnt let me sign on for like hella days i still couldn't until this morning.

i miss you.

you should have already missed me. shoot. you couldn't have "already" since you haven't seen me for more than a week :( i hope you can come tomorrow. its not fair is it? i miss you so much! i was hoping so much that you could come =/ ... oh well life will still go on even though i won't be able to see you .. poop.

:) i hope to see you tomorrow sweetie. or possibly tuesday. i dun care anytime will do :) i miss you so =\

so ... i will blog.


there i blogged :)


puhaha!

miss you!

:)

DrAsTicCovErage (6:14:53 PM): when u pass by during the hall way and stuff
DrAsTicCovErage (6:15:25 PM): i was gonna talk to u w/ my friend
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:15:33 PM): who am i with?
DrAsTicCovErage (6:15:39 PM): some guys
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:15:44 PM): ... me with guys?
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:15:45 PM): wtf?
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:15:47 PM): you serious?
DrAsTicCovErage (6:15:50 PM): dang.. ure always w/ Guys
DrAsTicCovErage (6:15:52 PM): i swear
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:15:55 PM): ...
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:15:58 PM): i am!??!
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:16:03 PM): err
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:16:04 PM): when was this?
DrAsTicCovErage (6:16:31 PM): yeah.. i saw u at lunch time w/ this guy
DrAsTicCovErage (6:16:35 PM): hallway w/ guy
LiLStrawBerry 01 (6:16:52 PM): ...
DrAsTicCovErage (6:16:52 PM): my class wasright next to u.. and u were w/ a guy
DrAsTicCovErage (6:16:59 PM): Different Guys TOO!

omg i never knew that. haha i swear i'm usually with girls!