i'll blog here ... since theres no one reading.

i sometimes wish that i could find just someone i could talk to. someone i actually keep good contact with, without developing a liking for that person because in the end i will be wierd and act differently to them. maybe i should stick with finding a good girl friend. for some reason guys seems so much easier to talk to, but they aren't stable on the friendship relationship or im not to them. hehe

i wonder what could allen tran be doing at this moment? besides from reading this, at the moment that i published this blog? possibly in his warm loving home in santa clara? or off out, like always? who knows, surely not me. i dont know anything anymore. will there actually be a chance for us to actually meet face to face once more? for the last time? or will there be many opportunities to come? was that random phone call the last one i will ever receive from you? who knows.

do you like winter? i do. its always so gloomy. my perfect mood. hehe =]

anyways i hope you're doing well. i'm sick and i hate it. i can't breathe, can't think, too lazy to do anything. oh well ... stay warm. bye allen.

allen, when are you coming back in december?

james bond was GOOD. i like cars. yes linda likes cars.

:D

terry bailed out, ALREADY so i have to go date searching ....

i'm 17 :D hm now i'm only a year younger than you. hehe

has mr. tran dissapear from this blog? O_o .. oh well i can talk to myself just fine.

have a nice day mr. allen ryan tran :)

harry potter was fun :) omg. i'm such a f'n girl! hahah the movie was actually scary. okay i don't know but there was this part with this book and the pages flipped, and i was like "OH!?" hecka loud. my cousins were hecka laughing -______- yea i got freaked out at that part?!?! haahahah ...

i like the movie. i think harry potter is cute. hermione is so adorable. oliver woods is hot. and tom riddle is sorta cute :) okayyy i had my fun :)

have you ever stayed in ONE CLASS for 3 HOURS?! mother of god >___< i DID! we had block schedule today, so my 6th period (WTP) was about 1:40 mins .. and school ends at 2:30 but we left at 3:35!! HOLY fcuk >_____< ...

lol ... i think asking a guy to a dance about ... a month early is a bit too early. but its okay, makes sense since he doesnt' go to my school or even in my district to ask him so early. i hope i can go now =/ i'm excited to go though ... hehe :) OMG he says he doesn't dance though except slow dancing! WAHH its okay imma make a dancer out of him yet .. :D

*wiggles butt in chair* i cant' wait until i get to go dancing. whoooOooOO. hehe

"Just something about you, The way I'm lookin at you whatever, You keep lookin at me, You gettin scared now, right? Don't fear me baby, it's just destiny. It feel good right? Listen" ... LALA ^___^

guess what i'm doing on my ONLY freaking day of break before my bday comes? i'm sitting in front of the computer, doing college apps. GAWD i hate this isht =( i finished filling out my UOP, CSUs, UCs apps. i just need to finish the personal statements. i have to do another personal statement for UOP (250 words) and an essay for Santa Clara University. ahh i have to fill out santa clara university out BY HAND! horrible! ...

i spent a few hours organizing my old blogs. the ones i used blogger for on duckie.injenue.com. i noticed that .. since may i hella blogged about you. hahah i came by some funny sections of our chats too "anh cho em keo" yeah bought a smile to my face =] but others weren't to happy to be read ... heh ...

ANYWAYS.

so whats up? i'm bored and i'm being a hecka big procastinator. i do not want to do my stats homework WHICH i have a test tomorrow, 0o0o go me. har har har.

my mom wants to order baked ham for my birthday, hahah sounds yummy. from that i KNOW adam will come, he loves honey baked ham. hehe too bad you live so far away to come ... =/

i'm hoping see harry potter and die another die within the next 2 weeks :D i'm excited *getting happy feet* hehe =D

is it cold in irvine right now? its raining like madness :( its cold too. but not COLD ENOUGH! haha i want to wear my damn coat! stupid weather .. but i think this winter will be pretty cold since summer wasn't even hot ... well thats my theory. hehe =]

okay imma leave you alone, bye bye budday~

are you in?

lemme see picture of connie :)

i wish it would snow ...

i like my nice black wool coat :) I LOVE NORDSTOMS! hehe i buy the best things there. i like my coat so much i bought one in tan too :DDDDDDD but the tan one was way on sale :D

i don't know. i was talking to bobby about it and haha he seems pretty interested in the idea. he was pretty assertive that he will sometime in the near future, rofl.

i personally thought i was going to be good ... in all aspects but so far good never prevailed in my life. i swear, watch, 5 years from now i'm going to be some ... uh uh ... bad person. lol ... kind of hard to believe, hm? oh well people change, thats for sure. i know i have. especially from summer, err so many stuff happening during summer.

=/ its okay, i miss him. why is it now that i miss him? i shuold have been missing him ever since i left vietnam, 2 years ago. i have their wedding book at my house ... *sigh ... and the paper flower basket in my room. when my dad wouldn't allow me to get it, he ran off buying me japanese fast food (burgers and fried chicken) and on the way bought me the flower basket. ... anyways

today sucked big time. i had a quiz, never did the homework for, englihs test didn't study (hamlet memorization krap ... ) but i think i did pretty well. wtp .. was awful. at lunch my teacher was pretty pissed off at our multiple choice scores. that scared the krap out of me. i didnt want to go to 6th because of that. unit 6, my unit, read our essay .. everyone talked except me. -___- i got yelled at. but then after school for essay 2, i jumped in to talk but it was pretty irrelevant. well it was revelevant but not good enough. ...

so have you talked to your family lately? hows your sister, jessica? your parents? brothers? your grandma? hope everyone is doing well in your family. including you, are you still sick?

bah i don't want to grow up. =X in two days i can call in to schedule my DMV appointment, WHOOOOO i can probably drive by the time you back for winter vacation :)

i think i will go send you a picture now .. hahaa i havent sent it for quite sometime =X

take care allen

you know what? i hope you still know, i'm still here to listen to whatever it is you need to say .. i'll always try to be, okay?

sorry i havent been telling you a lot or even nothing. i'm just in a mess .. =/

friends with benefits? i hit that topic today and i think about it. in may when you presented that idea i was not in favor but now i don't know doesnt seem bad but actually appealing. AHH SHAME ON ME . =/