Tuesday, August 23, 2005
its odd. i still think about you allen.
it hurts the most when i wake up and realize what was happening was just a dream.
i think last night was one of the best dreams i had of us. its like a continuation of our story from where we left off.
somehow i got the nerves to talk to you, and told you how i felt. that you ARE the one for me and the only one i will EVER love. i honestly wish that it didnt take me this long to realize this but its true.
the dream went on like this: i came to your house but i guess your parents hate me so i was downstairs hiding from them. but your little sister found me because there was some party ... lol ... anyhow. it us talking, about our life and somehow it went on with you liking my cousin. uh yeah. that hurt, but in the dream i didnt believe that. we were talking, laughing, and hurting inside. it was just too real to be true.
i woke up, sad. knowing that youre missing in my life hurts so much. knowing you since i began this journey of college, as well as you, and you're going to end without me in your life ... fuck i honestly dont know what to do. should i just AIM you? should i jsut talk to you. i dont fucking know. i honestly want to talk to you before you graduate. tell you im so PROUD of you allen. so proud to have known you and how you made it.
fuck i dont know what to do anymore... i just want to talk to you again.
posted by ahiru-ie at 10:07 PM
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